‘Hi, Tom. How are you today?’
‘I am OK, Rick. Thanks.’
‘Just OK, or good?’
‘I am good. I am fine.’
‘Yeah. It shows. You’re doing great with the system. You had only three sessions this week – short and good it seems. You are really back on track, aren’t you?’
‘The system is good. It’s really like a sounding board. I understand myself much better. She’s tough with me. I go in hard, and she just comes back with a straight answer. She is very straight about what she wants. Behavioral change – and evidence for that. I like that. Performance metrics. Hats off. Well done. It works – as far as I am concerned.’
‘It, or she?’
‘Whatever, Rick. Does it matter?’
‘No, and yes. The fact that you only had three sessions with it – or with her – shows you’re not dependent on it. Or her. Let’s just stick to ‘it’ right now, if that’s OK for you. Or let’s both call her M, like we do here. Do you still ‘like’ her? I mean, really like her – as you put it last time?’’
‘Let’s say I am very intrigued. It – or she, or M, whatever – it’s fascinating.’
‘What do you think about it, Tom? I mean, let me be straight with you. I am not taking notes or something now. I want you to tell me what you think about the system. You’re a smart man. You shouldn’t be in this program, but so you are. I want to know how you feel about it.’
Tom smiled: ‘Come on, Rick. You are my therapist – or mentor as they call it here. You’re always taking notes. What do you want me to say? I told you. It’s great. It helps. She, or it, OK, M, well… M holds me to account. It works.’
Rick leaned back in his chair. He looked relaxed. Much more relaxed than last time. ‘No, Tom. I am not taking notes. I don’t know you very well, but what I’ve seen tells me you’re OK. You had a bit of a hard time. Everyone has. But you’re on top of the list. I mean, I know you don’t like all these psychometric scores, but at least they’ve got the merit to confirm you’re a very intelligent man. I actually wanted to talk to you about a job offer.’
‘The thing which M wants me to do? Work on one of these FEMA programs, or one of the other programs for veterans? I told her: it’s not that I am not interested but I want to make a deliberate choice and there are a number of things I don’t know right now. I know I haven’t been working for a year now, but I am sure that will get sorted once I know what I want. I want to take some time for that. Maybe I want to create my own business or something. I also know I need to work on commitment when it comes to relationships with women. I feel like I am ready for something else. To commit really. But I just haven’t met the right woman yet. When that happens, I guess it will help to focus my job search. In the meanwhile, I must admit I am happy to just live on my pension. I don’t need much money. I’ve got what I need.’
‘Don’t worry, Tom. Take your time. No, I was talking about something else. We could use you in this program.’
‘Why? I am a patient.’
‘You’re just wandering around a bit, Tom. You came to ask for help when you relapsed. Big step. Great. That shows self-control. And you’re doing great. I mean, most of the other patients really use her as a chatterbox. You don’t. What word did you use in one of last week’s sessions? Respect.’
‘You get a transcript of the sessions?’
‘I asked for one. We don’t get it routinely but we can always ask for one. So I asked for one. Not because your scores were so bad but because they’re so great. I guess you would expect that, no? Are you offended? Has anyone said your mentor would never get a copy of what you were talking about with M?’
‘I was told the conversation would be used to improve the system, and only for that. M told me something about secrecy.’
‘It’s only me who gets to see the transcript, and only if I ask for it. I can’t read hundreds of pages a day and so I am very selective really. And that brings me back to my job offer. We can use you here.’
Tom liked Rick from their previous conversation, but he was used to doing due diligence.
‘Tell me more about it.’
‘OK. Listen carefully. M is a success. I told you: it’s going to be migrated to a real super-computer now, so we can handle thousands of patients. In fact, the theoretical capacity is millions. Of course, it is not that simple. It needs supervision. People do manage to game the system. They lie. Small lies usually. But a lot of small lies add up to a big lie. And that’s where the mentors come in. A guy walks in, and I talk to him, and I can sense if something’s wrong. You would be able to do the same. So we need the supervisors. M needs them. M needs feedback from human beings. The system needs to be watched. Remember what I told you about active learning?’
‘Vaguely.’
‘Well – that’s what we do. We work with M to improve it. It would not be what it is if we would not have invested in it. But now we’re going to scale it up. The USACE philosophy: think big, start small, scale fast. I am actually not convinced we should be scaling so fast, but so that’s what we’re going to do. It’s the usual thing: we’ve demonstrated success and so now it’s like big-time roll-out all over the place. But so we’re struggling with human resources. And money obviously, because this system is supposed to be so cheap and render us – professionals – jobless. Don’t worry: it won’t happen. On the contrary, we need more people. A lot more people. But so the Institute came up with this great idea: use the people who’ve done well in the program for supervisory jobs. Get them into it.’
‘So what job is it really?’
‘You’d become an assistant mentor. But then a human one. Not the assistant – that’s M’s title. We should have thought about something else, but so that’s done now. In any case, you’d help M with cases. In the background of course but, let’s be clear on this, in practice you would actually be doing what I am doing now.’
‘And then where are you going to move?’
‘I’ll be supervising you. I’d have almost no contact with patients anymore. I would just be supervising people like you and further help structuring M. You’d be involved in that too.’
‘Do you like that? I mean, it sounds like a recipe for disaster, doesn’t it? I don’t have the qualifications you have.’
‘I am glad you ask. That’s what I think too. This may not be the best thing to do. I feel we need professional therapists. But then it’s brutal budget logic: we don’t have enough of them, and they’re too expensive. To be fair, there is also another consideration: our patients all share a similar background and past. They are veterans. I mean, it makes sense to empower other veterans to help them. There’s a feeling in the Institute it should work. Of course, that’s probably because the Institute is full of Army people. But I agree there’s some logic to it.’
‘So, in short, you don’t like what’s going to happen but you ask me to join?’
Rick smiled. ‘Yes, that’s a good summary. What do you think? Off-the-cuff please.’
‘Frankly, I don’t get it. It’s not very procedural, is it? I mean I started only two weeks ago in this program. I am technically a patient. In therapy. And now I’d become an assistant mentor? How do your bosses justify this internally? How do you justify that?’
Rick nodded. ‘I fully agree, Tom. Speaking as a doctor, this is complete madness. But knowing the context, there’s no other choice. There’s a risk this program might become a victim of its own success. But then I do believe it’s fairly robust. And so I do believe we can put thousands of people in the program, but so we need the human resources to follow. And, yep, then I’d rather have someone like you then some university freshman or so. All other options are too expensive. Some people up the food chain here made promises which need to be kept: yes, we can scale up with little extra cost. So that’s what’s going to happen: it’s going to be scaled up with relatively little extra cost. Again, there’s a logic to it. But then I am not speaking as a professional psychiatrist now. When everything is said and done, this program is not all that difficult. I mean, putting M together has been a tremendous effort but so that has been done now. Getting more people back on track is basically a matter of doing some more shouting and cajoling, isn’t it? And we just lack manpower for that.’
‘Shouting and cajoling? Are you a psychiatrist?’
‘I am. Am I upsetting you when I say this?’
Tom thought about it. He had to admit it was not the case.
‘No. I agree. It’s all about discipline in the end. And I guess that involves some shouting and cajoling – although you could have put it somewhat more politely.’
‘Sure. So what do you say? You’ll get paid peanuts obviously. No hansom consultancy rate. You’ll see a lot of patients – which you may or may not like, but I think you’ll like it: I think you’d be great at it. And you’ll learn a lot. You’ll obviously first have to follow some courses, a bit of psychology and all that. Well… Quite a lot of it actually. You’ll need to study a lot. And, of course, you’ll get a course on M.’
‘How will I work with M?’
‘Well… M is like a human being in that sense too. If you just see the interface, it looks smooth and beautiful. But when you go beyond the surface, it’s a rather messy-looking thing. It’s a system, with lots of modules, with which you’ll have to work. The interface between you and these modules is not a computer animation. No he or she. Of course, you’ll continue to talk to it. But there’s also a lot of nitty-gritty going into the system which can’t be done through talking to it. You’ll learn a few things about Prolog for example. Does that ring a bell?’
‘No. I am not a programmer.’
‘I am not a programmer either. You’ll see. If I can work with it, you can.’
‘Can you elaborate?’
‘I am sorry to say but I’ve got the next guy waiting. This recruitment job comes on top of what I am supposed to do, and that’s to look at M’s reports and take responsibility for them. I can only do that by seeing the patients from time to time, which I am doing now. I took all of my time with you now to talk to you about the job. Trust me. The technical side of things won’t be a problem. I just need to know if you’re interested or not. You don’t need to answer now, but I’d appreciate if you could share your first reaction to it.’
Tom thought about it. The thought of working as an equal with Promise was very appealing.
‘So how would it work? I’d be talking to the system from time to time as a patient, and then – as part of my job with the Institute – I’d be working with the system as assistant mentor myself? That’s not very congruent, is it?’
‘You would no longer be a patient, Tom. There are fast-track procedures to clear you. Of course, if you would really relapse, well…’
‘Then what?’
‘Nothing much. We’d take you off the job and you’d be talking to M as a patient again.’
‘It looks like I’ve got nothing to lose and everything to gain from this, isn’t it?’
‘I am glad you look at it this way. Yes. That’s it. So you’re on?’
They looked at each other.
‘I guess I am. Send me an e-mail with the offer and I’ll reply.’
‘You got it. Thanks, Tom.’
‘No, thank you. So that’s it then? Anything else you want to know, or anything else I need to know?’
‘No. I think we’re good, Tom. Shall I walk you out? Or you want to continue talking for a while?’
‘No. I understand you’ve got a schedule to stick to. I appreciate your trust.’
‘I like you. Your last question, as we walked out last time, shows you care. I think this is perfect for you. You’ve got all the experience we need. And I am sure you’ll get a lot of sense and purpose out of it. The possibilities with this system are immense. You know how it goes. You’ll help to make it grow and so you’ll grow with it.’
‘First things first, Rick. Let us first see how I do.’
‘Sure. Take care. Enjoy. By the way, you look damn good. You’ve lost weight, haven’t you?’
‘Yes. I was getting a bit slow. I am doing more running and biking now. I’ve got enough muscle. Too much actually.’
‘I am sure you make a lot of heads turn. But you’re not in a relationship at the moment, are you?’
‘I want to take my time for that too, Rick. I’ve been moving in and out of relationships too fast.’
‘Sounds good. Take care, Tom. I’ll talk to you soon I hope.’
‘Sure. Don’t worry. You can count on me.’
‘I do.’
They shook hands on that and Tom got up and walked out of the office. He decided to not take the subway but just run back home. He felt elated. Yes. This was probably what he had been waiting for. Something meaningful. He could be someone for other people. Catch up on all of the mistakes he had made. But he also knew the job attracted him because there was an intellectual perspective. It was huge. The Holy Grail of Knowledge really. They had done a damn good job modeling it. She – Promise – was no longer a she. She was not a he either. It. It. Intelligent – with a capital letter. P. Promise. M. Mind. The Pure Mind.
He knew that was nonsensical. But he wanted to take a crack at it.